Random Thoughts #1

I read a lot. Like a lot a lot. I was recently reading “Find your people” written by Jeanie Allen and this book was BY FAR one of the most powerful books I have read in a long time.

Powerful books in terms of the “holy shit I have been dumb” moments.

This book made me realize two big things: 1. I am historically a bolter and 2. I have historically chosen narcissistic relationships.

We are gong to address number 1 today and I’ll address 2 in the next post.

I didn’t realize how much I bolted until I read this book, but it’s wild to me how much self-sabotage I have done when relationships (specifically friendships) have gotten hard. A few years back, I blamed everyone else. Most recently, I have convinced myself I have outgrown them. But either way, instead of leaning into the hard and tearing my walls down, I build those dang walls up and subconsciously go “nope, no one gets to know my inner self”.

That being said, this book has given me tools on how to grow my circle of friends correctly. Jeanie speaks on the importance of having a strong tribe of about 3-5 people. How much more rich your life would be if you lived the way she describes. I never realized how important it is to show your people your worst, to let them see all sides of you. How good it is to be needed and to need people.

I’m in the deep woods with this y’all, but I’ll keep you all posted on the good, the bad, and the ugly of this. It’s going to be messy, but it’s going to be wonderful.