I addressed some of this in a previous blog post but I want to delve more into it. As I have said prior, I have been a yoyo dieter since I can remember. If my memory serves me correct, my first “diet” was when I was in 7th or 8th grade when my parents signed me up for Weight Watchers.
Since the moment I signed up for WW, I have been battling with my relationship with food. I classified foods as “good” or “bad”. I created food rules on what I can and cannot eat when I am “being good” or “being bad”. When I slipped up on my diet, I would just chalk up the day as a wash and eat whatever I wanted. Then the next day, I would just tell my self “it’s okay, you can just restart monday”. This cycle repeated itself more times than I can count. And this continued until one day I was listening to a podcast and realized if I truly want to lead a healthy life, I need to change my relationship with food.
This journey is not going to be an easy one. There will be slip ups, there will be times where I the path is not clear, but it’s a journey I have to take. The first step to this healing process, at least for me, is removing all food rules I have and being hyperaware when my body is hungry verse when I am emotionally eating, eating out of boredom, etc…
I will continue to update you all on my struggles and triumphs with this journey. And if you too feel the way I have felt, do your research, consult with your doctor, read books, listen to podcasts. I will post what I find helpful to me as I test the waters here.